On Being Engaged

so, yes, it has finally sunk in. though i still stare at my ring bewildered by it. hehehe... and i still get depressed whenever knowing my sister (and dad) may not be here on my special day.. and the fact that things would have been easier (and happier) if only my sister was here. but, i have started to look at places for the reception, though the date we really haven't set it in stone. we are still nonchalant about it.. but there is a date hovering above us. i think i know which photographer i want, since i have my eye on them eversince... the dresses and tux could wait, but i've set on the color scheme that i want, thanks to my sister. i plan on not telling anyone about my color scheme unless you're part of the entourage. the flowers, well, that's the other thing that i have set my heart into... the church, well, i have this church that i really want, but they had just turned us down, since they only offer the church for this type of ceremonies to "members of the church" only due to some "legal" thingies in the past. so now, i have to look for another church.. i just want it to be small and have that cozy feeling. as for the reception.. well, the ultimate dream wedding is to have the reception at the brooklyn botanical garden, and since i (and horacio) think that spending $50k on the reception alone is not really practical... it's hard to find a place that is really pretty at the same time within our budget... i knew planning a wedding is hard, i just did think it would be this stressful!! if only achi was here... then there's the flowers and the car service and the dj (yes, we're thinking of hiring a dj) to worry about...

just a couple of days ago, we went into this bridal shop at steinway. i thought they only "sell" bridal gowns.. so we went in, hoping to get a catalog so that i could get more ideas on how i would my gown to look like and the color scheme. when a guy started to talk to us (i think he was the owner) and started to ask me questions.. i was like.. uh... i was so dumbfounded!! i didn't know that there was so much things!! and he started to tell me that they have been doing weddings for over ten years and that they could offer to take care from the dresses to the flowers to the car services. i think the selling point for me was that they don't advertise, they just rely on word of mouth. when we stepped out of that store, i just told horacio that i just felt like hiring them right then and there! i mean, i just felt like he took the weight off my shoulders!! i'm not sure how much a good idea that is though...

so for now.. if anyone out there have any suggestions for a church or reception place or florist or whatever.. please, please, please... don't hesistate!! hehehe