on calling in...

i am not really a bigg fan of calling in from work. even back when i was still in school, i would feel bad not going to school even if i am really sick and can't get out of bed. i remember one time, when i was on my second year in high school, i got really sick and i was tryi to get out of bed get ready for school since we were gonna have a test in biology. my sister had to pin me down (which was easy, since i was sick and weak) and assure me that it was ok that i stay at home. i also remember crying myself to sleep that time. thinking about it now makes me sound nerdy!! who would want to go to school for a test?!?!

anyways, today i called in (again..) and i felt so bad. although, i know that if i went to work i would just be in pain and wouldn't really be that beneficial, since work requires me to run up and down the hall, turn and move patient up the bed, continually remind patients not to get out of bed -- and that is just an eighth of what we regularly do. i have a real reason why i didn't go though. and most people at work knew about it, since i came to work yesterday. i don't exactly know what it is yet, but i have been having a bad feeling on my stomach for the past two days. i have been feeling dull pain on my stomach with occassional sharp pains. as i tried to explain to horacio how the pain is... it's like having contractions (i think!). since it's so painful and that's the only thing i could think of on how to describe it. i tried to rule out a lot of things... it's not caused by spicy food (since i just had indian food last night and buffalo wings today and it didn't make it feel any worse) and not of soda (which i just had a couple of glasses, and nothing). i don't know about coffee though, but i am not drinking any of those at the moment. i don't think it's an ulcer, since i still have the appetite to eat, and it doesn't go away after i eat. what's worse, i get nauseaus after eating (but that doesn't stop me). it can't be GERD since i tried to drink milk and not a gallon of milk alleviates the pain. it's not gas, since i took maalox as well... i haven't had any episodes of vomiting or diarrhea.... so, i really have no clue what's going on with me. but, i finally caved in and called my doctor today... i was hoping that he would see me earlier today, but i knew it was a far shot. so, i would be seeing him tomorrow instead. i am now hoping that he'd give me a note, since i took two days off from work plus this weekend is my weekend off... i know the supervisors are just gonna love reprimanding me.

on the lighter side of what's going on with my life... well... what can i say... the weather had been pretty sucky these past few days. it has been gloomy, rainy and cold!! and to think summer is not officially over yet!!! i love summer... please, sun, come out again!! actually, i don't mind the less humid days, it's the rain that bugs me the most! i like rain, but i don't like it when i have to leave the house. i like it when i could just stay at home, lay in my bed, watch some movies, hear the pitter patter of the rain on the window, eat lots of junk foods or a nice bowl of soup! i guess i just got used to the rain in the Philippines. for when it rains, it meant no one is allowed outside the house unless you want to get stuck in the middle of somewhere.

work has been alright... i really can't complain. i don't hate my job. i kinda enjoy it! (lol) i know, it sounds weird. but as most people know, one can't have everything in life. i enjoy taking care of people and to actually know that i am helping people, makes me feel good. i know it sounds so cheesy and cliche, but this is really what made me want to become a nurse - to help people and know that i made someone smile each day. well... what can't make you smile when an old, sweet lady tells you that you are an angel just for re-positioning her? i dunno... maybe it's just me... i adore most of my patients. some of them could be such a pain in the you-know-where (especially the family)... but life isn't perfect. i know i still groan about going to work and wish that i don't have to work... i also have bad days, but then i think about my old job... then the bad days ain't so bad anymore! :)

anyways, i better stop babbling nonsense... but i am sure my mom's gonna love this post since it's lengthy! hehehe (i love you mom, i know that you are my avid reader, eventhough you don't know how to post a comment!). got to prepare myself for tomorrow... getting sticked and probed! i hate needles!!!