thoughts...

here i am, been awake since 0530. i got home at around 0030, went to bed at 0130. i waws dreaming, sleepng peacefully when a thought (or was it a dream?) about work woke me up. i now have this naging feeling that i forgot to do something for the admission that i did yesterday. although it is something really minor, it's those minor things that gets you (especially in my line of work). i am tempted to call work and find out if i did put in and finish filling that one piece of paper out (which the info could actually be seen in the main chart). i don't know.. what if i didn't? should i pass by work today and do it? just for that one piece of paper? if if didn't and joint commission do come today, would i get in really deep trouble? these thoughts have been killing me.. on the other hand, i have a feeling that i did fill out the form. another little man in my head told me that i did fill it out, that i did put in the info. besides, if i didn't do it, why wouldn't the other nurse in charge of that team let me know? she would have notice if that folder wasn't at the bedside, wouldn't she?

this thing has actually been going on... i would be going home tired. doing a final mental task checklist before i leave the floor and go home realizing i forgot to do one minor thing. thank God it's only minor. i haven't been coming home nad realizing i neglect to notify a doctor about patient's status, or omit any substantial medication.

i know i am not alone in this paranoia world. i know colleagues of mine who also dream of work and think nothing but work. even on a day off. yes, i got no life (although, i still would like to think i do!).

from the time that i have started to work, i have been good in leaving work in the office after office hours until now. i may come home stress but i don't dream about it nor think about it on a day off.

work aside, life has been treating me well. i really can't complain, with the blessings that i am receiving. i am actually more thankful that He is keeping me sane and letting me keep my head up no matter how hard/stressful work could be. after all, it's only eight hours of work...

i really need a break!!! just let these cobwebs off my head! i have to stop thinking of work. shopping may be a good therapy... oh boy...